| Tell Me Who You Really Are |
[Dec. 28th, 2009|11:11 pm] |
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I have been having plans. For now, there's events lined up to Thursday. I told myself to get packing, get cracking on the uni plans. So, tomorrow, I'm going to have to call up IDP and settle all that sort of stuff. I have to start packing because while last minute is okay, I don't think throwing everything into the luggage for a 19day trip is going to cut it. |
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[Dec. 28th, 2009|04:47 pm] |
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no more work. been working so hard. I'm gonna miss the 2 china guys at work. They so funny. and all the nice people. I've got my 2 weeks break. Spent much needed time on the computer. maybe getting the new sony cam :) and i got a new zip bra preen bigini. NOT. its only a plain bigini. and im gonna rock band now. yay me! |
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| Love Lust Life , time to wind up 2009 , 2010 here i come |
[Dec. 28th, 2009|01:46 pm] |
i never really knew what love is till i fell out of this special something which i knew was Love. (I wouldnt say fell out, rather goaded by good/bad forces into singlehood.. mm that's besides the point.. anyhow......)
" Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance, and you find out that you still care for that person." some inspiring note my mum scribbled on a post-it that i found on her desk ey.
In my 18 years of existence , other than my family members, ive never really cared for anyone else or love-loved a person till my 'prince charming' came along, armed with nothing but perfection at first sight and maybe that horrible stench of bbq that still reminds me of him by the way and oh, bvlgari. Cut the long story short, we fell in love.
There was love for friends and the bestfriend but not that love that you could describe that special someone as That Missing Jigsaw Piece that made you whole . The Piece you would do anything within the limits of sanity to not lose it. It was the point when the world closed in, life consists of just him, me and the inescapable eat out-or-eat in petty feuds. more eat-ins of course, that's with no doubt.. given Our awesome culinary skills .. boasting aside, i was just extremely convinced that he was the one.
Then came the part when he'd work his 'effortless' ass off to impress my family members or should i say, it felt like him just being his genuine weird self. For instance, there was once this day when he said this crazy nonsense" read the bible till you get orgasm" and that phrase till today has never failed to 'save' my casual struggles in getting my point across ... " ___ till orgasm ". Pardon my/his crudeness. Cut the long story short, despite his lewd sense of humour my family members liked him.
Just in case you're getting derailed into thinking that i fell for a maniac, no i fell for a normal , sane, pretty and mm Godly boy. ( as for falling out of love .... ill keep that story for another day lest i commit the act of derogation which wouldnt be appropriate since, it's a season to be jolly tralalala.. maybe on the 31st when ill probably be emoing to the nemo ha ha ha.. i can be quite funny).
We painted the future together, i came up with the craziest ideas just so that we could be extraordinary lovers . For instance, getting breakfast and travelling down to his suburb and surprising him in Bed. Oh, i still remember how surprised he look, even though i did it 3 times told-cha im an impeccable ninja. and and and! sitting the train for fun, just to be together.
Truth time , this is the true rationale behind my energy for these atypical acts. I actually wanted to marry my first true love, so i thought this was my only chance to get creative.. just imagine telling your children and your children's children or the Nassim road taitais the funny cute stories.. something like... " i married my first true love, he proposed while we were sky diving and when we landed in ..err ION ORCHARD, he had all the shops in ion orchard change their brand labels to 'rena will you marry me '"
im a day-dreamer.
Now that That dream is never going to be fulfilled. It kinda hit me that dreams dont come true. It better not , because nightmares are dreams and i dont want to have little dwarfs chew on my peanut toes at night.
dreams and aspirations are different. shall rant on that some other time.
So, what's there to believe in now?
God and prayers.
I got bored of writing about my Love Story so yea which i reckon i shouldnt even be writing about. But well, at least through writing, i kinda got insight into what i truly want in Life now.
Im going to run on ambition, with leveled amounts of rest and play, constant reminders of reality. Oh, and of course, lose the acts, time to be real. My parents always say you attract who you are. So, no ones to blame for my dissatisfaction in friends,relationships etc.
mimimomo.. everything shall be God centered from today onwards. ILL TRY! |
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| christmas |
[Dec. 26th, 2009|01:18 am] |
as always, have been thinking a lot. that comes with no surprise lol. but well yea.. and mmm ive kinda been sharing it with the closer oness...
anw! i have been spending a lot of time with my family and speaking of that! ive got an early day tmr!
waking up! and cooking my grandma's specialty! CURRY CHICKEN for my family before i leave for melbourne in 5 days time! muahahha
christmas eve dinner was awesome!
had 4th grand aunt and uncle over!
land and canaan came with pecan cake after for abit :):) thanks lan <3
then i whipped up muahchee ( resa helped to stir and cut the muahchee! thanks sa! she wanted to learn!! lol) on a spontaneous note lol. glad my mum and relatives liked it!!
then we( my family) stayed up till 130am! we got out our 2009 resolution list which my dad typed out and we checked/unchecked our list.
after which, we moved from resolution to a prayer list! then to a long long session of prayer.
one common prayer that everyone's got on their prayer list for me is that i remain consistent in my faith and walk with God. :S thanks familia! will be praying too! and i really wanna try .. urghh so hard..
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presents! thanks for the bag sa!
and mm i think my parents are really nice! despite having to pay au$3712 :S:S:S shakalaka. My mum is still willing to bring me shopping and stuff and let me choose whichever restaurant that i wanna go too!
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best present 2009 goes to my WANT OF THE SEASON :)
i have had my eyes on this Michael Kors watch for while!
going online and trying my best to get it at the lowest rate!
ranting on and on about getting it!
and TODAY! MY SISTER RODELLE! presented the watch to me !!!! flamingzhotz! i cried. HAHAHAHHA
emo me
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there's something about me and watches!
2007 - my mum gave me an emporio armani watch :)
2008- i convinced my dad to get me a watch! and i customized my very own Fossil watch :):)
2009- i got my WANT of the season! the superduper chio ccskype inspired Michael Kors watch!
yayyyy
im over the moon! happy happpppy :)
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i wanna wish everyone a happy merry bagus christmas!
loads of presents kisses and hugs!
if you lack any!
find me! ill kiss and hug you and make sure you have a memorable(random) christmas !! lol. no presents sry! MO QIN !!
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ill leave my uber long thank you message on the 31st of december when i arrive in melbourne! have no one else but the comp! :( lol
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on a rather random note,
Rodelle , Mum , granny and i are all wearing the same thing! sarong! lol FTW! it's my PJ lol!
super kiewt right lol! ( i know my pose is damn awkward .. sry la.. a lot of arm pit fats! and that's a failed attempt to look skinnyskinnier F.A.I.L. lol.. !! just trying to get some photos up since my blog has been rather wordy)
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| (Un)Happy Holidays. |
[Dec. 25th, 2009|12:59 pm] |
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This year. I don't know why this year. It should have been this year. That there'll be the christmas feel; but there isn't. But that's okay. Sometimes, I wish I would be more pro active, initiating meetups and what's not. That way, it doesn't seem so bad. I've been busy the entire week since Leona's here from Hk and she finally knows people from this country. But when it's christmas, I'm finally free. That's quite sad. I've decided not to lock livejournal so much which is why this is going to be public (after about a million years.)
Ps, Steph, if you read this sometime-I-don't-know-when, Happy Birthday Chaodapok! |
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[Dec. 23rd, 2009|03:21 pm] |
" well at least jiejie will be picking you up from the airport ( at 1125pm aus time) which means you're not spending NYE alone"
not anymore
dad just told me that ill have to cab back from the airport because my sister's gonna be like on some road trip from the 31stdec to 2nd jan.
spending NY with her boyfriend
:(
nuuuu!
i cant even call someone up to meet them or anythin..
angmoh friends will be with their angmoh families in their suburbs. not like im close to any in the first place.
close friends in singapore.. probably having a blast at parties or with their own family
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all in all, ill be a.l.o.n.e.
when my sis returns from her road trip.. off she flies back to sg to reunite with family while i remain in melbourne .. with lulu the cat and mocha the wabbit.
zzzzzzzzzzzzz |
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